LONG time NO see

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wow.. it's really long period since my last sketches.. today, i'm not feeling well.. i think fever is coming nearly.. i tried to ignore and do some works at home last nite.. seems it better.. but my throat aches makes me feel uncomfortable..

now, i really busy treating tenders.. lembu, construction, textiles..

i should stop.. works are waiting..

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lonely

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now, status changed to 'married'.. happy but not really feel the marriage life.. being far from him, makes me feel lonely.. but luv is put somebody's need above your own.. so, i'll do that.. huhu..

a week ago, i'm browsing my ex's fb.. a bit distracted by his words, suddenly he came across in my mind.. but, i dont think what he said are real feeling of him.. it's just not him..

i spent my weekend at nilai. completing tenders on the saturday and cleaning on sunday.. now, i lay down on my couch watching tv.. how bored i am.. huhu.. anyway, fingers off.. i wanna go to giant o tesco to buy some goods..

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sambil menunggu ita buat keje..

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esok lusa dh nk pindh umah.. x jauh pn.. 1 step forward to new journey.. brg2 byk dh packing, 60% done.. tggl lg brg2 kt dapur & ruang tamu bwh.. tp, lori x dpt lg.. huhu.. umah br pn x jenguk lg.. hmmm.. recently, feel a bit tired.. not sleep well.. woke up as early as 3am.. even i sleep early..

aku sll camni.. bila dh dkt2 passion akn mula pudar.. nnt dh dkt sgt2, br la semangat blk.. mgkn byk dpengaruhi oleh keadaan tubuh yg x brp bmaya ni.. honey will come tomorrow after work to help me packing & moving..

pejam celik, pejam celik, lg 37 hari aku akn nikah.. skrg x rasa apa lg, biasa2 je.. xtau la bila nk dkt2 nnt.. tp ada a few tiny things yg x setel lg.. wedding cake x order lg.. dulang hantarn cam kena cari back up je ni.. kompang x confirm lg.. wedding car.. n bbrp brg yg kena beli ujung mggu ni bsama honey.. dh janji nk g beli bsama hr tu.. my mom blk twu this sunday..

lg 1 pkr yg mbebankn kepala hotak aku ni.. berat bdn yg x nk turun2 nih.. uwaaaa.. masa dh singkt, berat xnk turun plak.. dh cukup blapar dh ni, cuma x exercise je lg ni.. hehe.. dgn condition aku ni, mmg la ssh nk turun.. nnt dh kawin, xtau la camane ye.. huhu.. seram je klu bayang..

big boss asked me, after married, am i going to stay or resign n reside at dungun? i said i will stay n honey will move here.. really?? hehe.. thats the plan but depends on Allah's will.. i follow... but i really hope that we can live together as a married couple here.. i know many things should b considered, but wait n see..

actually, aku belum smbhyg asar lg.. huhu.. so, i stop here..

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sad :(

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i really upset today.. i dont know how to think.. shud i shut down? shud i ignore? shud i say? shud i cry? shud i worry? shud i ...

i do know the real feeling towards her.. he think of her, remember the memories between them.. whatsoever, they were having such a gud memories that they've shared for about 5years.. what is really make me feel upset that he was the one who expressed his feeling that he suddenly think of something regarding time that they've shared and hope to see her.. i m surely she would b felt sthing after this, bcoz i do so.. i hate this feeling.. but, i can't help it.. ya allah.. pls give strength!

i can't sleep.. i know, she will contact him tonite, they will texting each other and he will definitely forget about me! definitely! i feel sad.. i wanna cry.. hmmm.. :(

i really feel sad!

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my happy weekend

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my honey surprisingly came visit me yesterday.. am soo happy.. umi n others family members came along.. we went to nilai 3, umi bought things for hantaran.. then, we ate at nasi lemak ayam goreng..

miss my honey.. huhu..

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rasa bersalah.. huhu

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huhu.. when i see his face, suddenly i feel guilty.. i dont mean to stab his back, not et all, i just report what i am suppose to report.. i know, he deserve some compliment for what had he have been done, but sometimes he is not reliable.. missing in action.. i tried to help him, but i dont know how.. ya Allah, i hope he can accept this thing..

phew..

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susahnya kalau merasa diri sendiri SANGAT BAGUS..

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look at the title, 'klishe' right? a lot of people talking about these kind of people.. suddenly, i think i want share about this topic..

i am 33 years old.. i've been in a career life for about 10years.. its nothing if u want to compare to other successful people out there.. but, of course i am surrounded with varieties type of people. 1 of them is as mentioned above..

i just read a sarcastic status in one of my friend's fb.. frankly, i think i know who's the target.. i m aware of the drama.. the story.. they talking about what is the important using punch card in your office/working place? "throw away that damn puch card machine! u can't judge the worker by their punch card!" - hmmmm.. i wonder, can u give me any succesful company whose not having punch card system? this group of people are know nothing but they talk like they know everything.. pity them!

they makes me feel uuurrrggghhhh.. i was thinking to investigate this thing.. my guts telling me something is going wrong, somebody in the ship sharing something with outsider, which no longer involve with the ship management.. huhu..

hmm.. i hope nothing bad will happen.. ya allah, please give us strength to face all your test/challenge.. and b with us in every step we make and please bless us! amin yya rabbal alamin..

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Bulan Rejab

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I will end up my bachelor on Rejab 2, 1432.. insyaAllah..

somebody asked me, why r u choose Rejab for ur wedding? i was disturbed.. sounds like something goes wrong/not really smart choosing Rejab to get married.. so, i do some fact findings regarding Rejab..

according to article i read, this is the findings..

~ bulan Rejab is a 7th month and its very important month during Jahiliah age ~ Isra' Mi'raj thing..

~ Allah gives more reward to whom performed ibadah, which are :

**wet your lips with Salawat to Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wassalam

**Taubat nasuha

**Fasting as many as u can

**pray (doa)

nikah is one of ibadah if u r doing in the name of Allah, to gain His pleased.. so, i think that somebody is not really know what he is saying.. or he actually not very sure.. i am relieved..

wassalam

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puasa sunat..

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Sekadar renungan bersama..

Diantara hari-hari yang disunatkan untuk berpuasa dalam Islam adalah seperti berikut:

1. Puasa enam iaitu puasa yang dijalankan selama enam hari dalam bulan Syawal. Puasa ini dilakukan sehari selepas 1 Syawal sama ada secara berturut-turut atau tidak.
2. Puasa awal bulan Zulhijjah dari 1 haribulan hingga 8 haribulan Zulhijjah.
3. Puasa pada hari Arafah iaitu pada 9 haribulan Zulhijjah.
4. Puasa pada 9 haribulan Muharram.
5. Puasa pada Hari Asyura iaitu pada 10 haribulan Muharram.
6. Puasa dalam bulan Rejab mengikut kemampuan berpuasa.
7. Puasa dalam bulan Sya'ban kecuali pada hari syak iaitu 30 haribulan Sya'ban.
8. Puasa pada tiap-tiap hari isnin dan khamis.
9. Puasa tiga hari pada tiap-tiap hari bulan Qamariah.

mudah2an Allah memberi kita kekuatan dan keazaman untuk melakukan amalan-amalan sunat sebagai bekalan di kemudian hari.. wallahu a'lam..

P/S : hurry up! update your calendar.. remind yourself all the dates...

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duit duit d mn ko duit..

everyday people talking about money.. so much desire, so limited income! even i try so hard to budget all expenses, always slipped.. huhu.. once fumbled, it will contagiously ruined unless u cut off some expenses which less important / not important et all..

problem is when you reached a situation that u can't turn back! u have to face it! that's what i am facing right now.. consideration doesn't help u this time.. u want to scream, u want to shout to somebody, but u cant! because u have to think about his feeling..

::tu la.. org ckp xmo dgr.. skrg dh problem, sy jg kena tlg awk setelkn.. huhu::

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budget calculating

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it's already 1.44am.. my eyes widely open.. thinking, calculating, budgetting.. i hope time flies faster and june become closer.. i just wanna it goes smoothly as planned.. hopefully everything is in order and budget planned is sufficient.. this is an important momment.. we have to stick n discipline ourselves to ensure everything is fine..

phew!! finally, my eyes give up n ready to b close.. gud nite all.. remember allah before u sleep..

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excitement continue

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i bought curtain cloth.. pinky peach.. whoaa!! i'm so excited! saturday! please come early! i cant wait for my sewing machine.. sizes already figured out, waiting to re-measure when i come in.. huhu..

huuarrgg.. suddenly feel sleepy.. gud nite..

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4 posts in a row.. :)

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i posted 4items in a row today.. hahaha.. jakun na juak.. i felt a bit bored.. honey request me to wake him up 6.15am.. hmmm.. tomorrow he has seminar at k.tganu..

my kitten, cibi always bullied her sister, cici.. so noisy.. i have 1 cat named cj7.. she has 2kids - cibi €and cici.. cibi is so active kitten, naughty.. cici is smaller than cibi, less energize.. i hope she has long life..

nothing else to do.. coughing come again wif difficulty to breath.. most probably because of the cats' furs.. huhu.. b patient until i move to nnew home.. i'll make sure they have a comfort zone.. not rely on me all the time..

i'm not doing my isya' pray yet.. after shower, i just let my hair drying.. n the meantime, i am blogging.. huhu.. right after this, i'll complete my duty n go to sleep! :)

tomorrow's planning - buy tender, check status of all participated tenders, f/up aircon status, planning for the next service schedule.. i'm imagining tomorrow gonna b bz.. huhu.. n huaaarrrgghhh.. i am sleepy.. hurry up! solat!

gud nite everibodi..

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blogging from my phone..

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i am blogging from my phone.. haha.. new addiction..

hmm.. i am waiting for maghrib, i am fasting.. qada'.. its my last day! but, i got to continue since i cant manage my weight.. always up n down.. but most of the time, it goes up! huhu.. i have to puasa, to drink slimming tea, to exercise, to control this, to control that.. ohh.. i'm tired n exhausted! at the end, i still fat.. huhu..

another 30min b4 maghrib.. i have mushroom soup, a few slices of pizza and chicken wings for breaking fast menu.. balance from lunch at pizza hut.. bosses were here n had a lunch together.. huhu..

hmm.. my honey didn't call o sms me for today.. n i didn't call him either.. huhu.. ok, i will sms him as soon as i rest my case!

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New home passionate.. walla..

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I'll move to new 'rented' home on May.. 1 month to go.. but i really excited to do my home design.. actually, not much i can do because my budget is so limited, but it does not hold me to always thinking n dreaming about it..

i already bought a cheap sewing machine, which i purchased from mudah.com.. huhu.. i'll get the machine by saturday.. i promised to En Aziz to pick up at my sis's house at Ampang.. can't wait.. then, the next step, i will go to Nilai Square to pick my curtain cloth.. the design already figured out.. i hope my hands will stretching enough to do all this things.. haha..

hmmm.. yesterday, i had a quick visit to the house, orange painted.. hoho.. actually, i was visualizing the grey + black + cream curtain, instead of orange.. but, i think i will change my mind.. i will choose orange.. plain orange, english cotton.. hopefully they have enough stock..

i was thinking a lot about my cats.. i was planning to cement render the backyard.. so my cats can play around, but i have to modify the fencing.. put extra small fencing.. hmmm... how much the cost ya.. huhu.. oh ya! i think i want to remain some land space to gardening.. hahaha.. would i?? at least i can plant chillies, serai.. hmmm.. sooo excited la..

ok2.. 1st thing 1st.. let me finish my curtain, then i'll go to the next item.. hehehe..

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Testing 123

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Testing 123.. saje mau try..

i wish to share my feelings, my thoughts to anybody who willing to share.. actually this is my 2nd attempt.. wait n see.. how long it will go.. huhu..

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